Sometimes I forget. I forget why I stay on this website. Why I spend so much time on a blog that is seen as a waste of time to others. Why I love it so much.
And then I see a post like the one I read earlier and I remember. I remember how many incredible people have come and gone throughout my time on Tumblr. Some of the greatest people I’ve ever met. It doesn’t matter how far away they are, they often care about you more than your irl friends. I’ve had quite of a few of those people. Many of them I don’t speak to anymore, but I want them to know that I still love them so much and I miss them like crazy. I’m just really bad at communication.
I don’t even know where this post came from. I just… I saw T’s New Years post earlier and it was just another moment when I realized why I do this. Because of people like her. People with hearts of gold, who have gone through more than anybody ever deserves at any age. People who, despite my communication failure, haven’t give up on me. Because I don’t have a lot of people in my life who actually care about me, or at least pretend to and it means so much to me. I just love her a whole lot and I’m so glad that I had the privilege of meeting her. So yea. Thank you for everything that you’ve done for me. I really don’t know how I could ever make it up to you.